We have all been changed.
This son whom we call "T1" which stands for Treasure One (our first treasure) has also grown to love and appreciate his little sister more, if that is even possible. We have loved this little girl from the moment we met her and have greatly enjoyed our days with her. But this son has learned what a miracle a healthy baby is. One day a few months ago, he looked at his sister and told me, "She is growing up so fast. I will know Mama. I'll know to hold my babies."
Heartbroken people...and a sweet little dead baby.
He sat there looking at him for a moment, then he broke down.
On the drive we were listening to the dramatized audio version of John Bunyan's book, Christiana. He was sitting in the front seat beside me. There is a saying that is said often in this audio, they say "The bitter must come before the sweet." When it was said, he looked at me and nodded. He didn't want me to miss the truth in it. He was always trying to help me to see God in the midst of this trial.
It hit me.
He feels like we do.
It was his little brother that he had hopes and dreams for too.
God is grooming him to be a great Papa someday.
I was driving in the car by myself the other day. Thinking and crying about Samuel. I was thinking about what a helper this son has been during our time with Samuel. What a blessing. What a gift...when it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Jehovah has given him...to us...to show His love for us.
He is his name.
A loving gift that made me cry all over again in gratefulness to God.