Thursday, October 1, 2009

Baby T5 update

I haven't had the energy or courage to post but I suppose it is time.

We went in for our first ultrasound on August 11th. My husband and I were nervous, but eager to have our fears dispelled. When the technician showed me the baby's kidneys I just burst into tears of relief. But later as she looked at the heart I squeezed my husband's hand, her eyes were fixed and serious...but somehow I thought I was just imagining things.

Unfortunately, I wasn't.

We found out we were having another son and that he had many problems. We went for more ultrasounds the following day at a perinatologist. I had an amniocentisis done. The end result is that our son has Trisomy 13. An extra 13th chromosome in every cell of his body.

I can't tell you the devastation we feel.

To know we are walking down basically the same road is very painful. We know what is coming, we know so well.

I have wanted to post about this, and also, I haven't. I am just trying to do every day one day at a time and feed the kids, keep some laundry done. We need prayer.

Here is his adorable profile at 23 wks.

7 comments:

BEthany said...

Debra, I just wanted to let you know that I love you and am still praying for you and precious Samuel.

Tina said...

What a beautiful profile he has. I am Tina and Angie sent me your direction. I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your sweet Isabel and now for your new little one too. My heart breaks for you. If I can help you in anyway, please contact me. I will be thinking and praying for your peace and comfort during this difficult time. xx

The Tellinghuisen Family said...

The picture is beautiful - you have a very beautiful family. My heart is heavy for you, and I will continue to pray for you guys.

I know the devastation to see/hear the news at an ultrasound that things are not right...makes you want to go back in time and never have an ultrasound at all!

Your baby son is precious to many of us already!
-Stephanie
mom to Aidan and Ty

Big James said...

I wish that I could have been there for you today. I will be praying for you guys.

Debra said...

Thank you James. I would have loved to get a big hug from you.

Papa said...

Honey, I'm so proud of you. We've been given a difficult road to travel and you have done so beautifully.

It's hard to be on a journey with so many hopes and aspirations, and then encounter so many pains and disappointments. These are hard days, and I so wish thing were going the way we wanted them to, but I am thankful to have you with me.

I love you hun.

T

Anonymous said...

Debra- I had been checking in at your blog every once in a while, I had no idea that you lost another baby!
God, please be with this family. Give them strength and courage to face the tommarows. Give them faith and hope.
Amen.
May God hold you up in His Everlasting Arms.
~Amanda