If I could go back
Back to before the hopes and dreams
Before the heartache and sorrow
Before all the tears
I wouldn't Samuel.
I wouldn't
Because now I know you.
I know your face.
You are one of us now.
You belong to us
And I would never want to undo that.
I wish I could have seen your little face
break out into smile.
To hear you laugh that baby laugh
Watch you nurse
Play peek-a-boo with your brothers and sister
Watch you sleep on Papa's chest
in the dim light of the lava lamp
But we will have to wait for all those things.
We will spend our lives dreaming of you
And the days ahead when we will get to know you
As you truly are.
Not just an adorable little face
But you as God created you.
Until then, grab your sister's hand.
Enjoy Heaven.
When you see that one of us is coming
Wait for us at the gate.
5 comments:
Oh Debra this poem is so beautiful. I was especailly touched by this line "Until then, grab your sister's hand." I can't imagine having to live through this twice. I am so sorry. I hope you are hanging in there.
Debra, I found your blog through a pattern link from Ravelry - though I don't know you, I am so sorry for your loss and I am thankful for your faith to see you through. Why you would have to walk this path twice seems so cruel and unfair. God is saving your tears and His heart breaks with yours.
Debra, Thank you for your email and comments on my blog. I am so sorry to hear about Samuel, but thank you so much for sharing your story with me. God bless you and your family. I will be praying for you all as you grieve the loss of yet another baby.
these words are beyond beautiful. words born from love and sorrow, wrapped up in hope.
crying with you, praying for you.
i just realized you wrote this on my christian's birthday.
i can't wait for heaven. i am so thankful for the gift of salvation, so undeserving am i!
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